Feb 28, 2014

Confidence Girl

Cardigan: gift, Shirt: Eddie Bauer, Pants: Kmart, Boots: Seychelles

Sometimes my confidence is sky high. Sometimes not so much. I don't know if you feel the same but sometimes I have a hard time feeling completely comfortable around other women. I guess I've just been burned so many times or maybe it's just because I am so self conscience? I'm also a huge introvert so it takes an act of Congress for me to make the first move. That's why I generally gravitate towards women that are extroverts. They get the ball rolling and then I feel comfortable to jump in. 

I've been around someone who has judged me a couple of times, several times now, basically on just my appearance. It happened again last night and I have to remind myself that she just doesn't know me. Yes, I do like to get dressed up and look pulled together. But I don't do it to make other people uncomfortable. At the same time I don't feel like I am that high maintenance. I am pretty casual in my appearance overall. Much more casual than I used to be. There was a time that I would've never left the house without full makeup and hair done. I don't know...I guess I really should just approach her about it but I do not like confrontation and shouldn't I just let it go anyway? I do not want to argue I really don't. And I'm not even angry. I'm hurt and confused. It is making me self evaluate.

As women I think we should build each other up instead of tearing each other down. I don't want to show up in sweatpants and old tennies because I wear those kinds of things at home! I want to put on something different when I head out. I used to dress up all the time when I was going out to the local watering hole. I used to have more money to go out to eat, drink and see shows. Now, we have one income so we don't go out as often and I also got sober because I was/am an alcoholic. So when I do go out now, I wear something that I love and that I feel good in. Plus, I don't know about you but when I wear sweatpants I don't feel good. It's like I have less energy or something. I get a bounce in my step when I'm wearing something that I feel fabulous in. Should we change who we are to make others feel more comfortable when they are around us?

I love all these colors. Makes me happy happy! Here's an oldie goldie photo shoot of mine with graffiti.


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