Life Lately: Celebrating

I had a post a couple of days ago where I wore a long striped maxi dress and was telling you that I could remember the exact time I last wore it. It's true. It was the worst night but then the best day followed.

That night was a repeat of many, many other nights so on the surface, it was nothing too special. My husband had become used to my antics and my mom, people I worked with and most others just had no clue. I had drank way too much only this time I made even worse decisions. My mom had to become involved and my husband had to be woken up at 3am to come and get me. Not good.

The next morning I told my mom,

I am an alcoholic.

And I want help.

The beginning was hard but I started going to Celebrate Recovery, which is like A.A. and N.A. and all of that rolled up into one with a focus on Jesus Christ as the only way to fully recover. I didn't like being sober in the beginning. I hated it. I had NO idea what I was going to do with all of my time. I really worried how I was going to not be so bored all of the time. But honestly, I beleive through prayer God actually took the desire to drink away from me. I believe He lifted it from me. Now, I don't mean that when I look at a beer or see a glass of wine I don't think, hmmm...that looks nice. But I don't "want"it. 

Here is what wanted to share with you today. I have completed 1 YEAR SOBER! 

My sweet friend that is almost celebrating her 1 year gave me these flowers the night of the chip ceremony. It is such a wonderful feeling to know I have made it 1 year. And I have more to come!!!!!! It is also so comforting to know that no matter where I have come from or what I have done I have been forgiven. I do NOT have to carry around any guilt or shame of what I did. I am starting my 12 step study in the next few weeks. I am excited to get very deep into my recovery and to uncover clues that might have led me to be an alcoholic in the first place.